Tag I'm It!

I have been tagged by Allie at fridaynightambulance to jot down a few random things about myself. The funny thing is, well ok there are two funny things: First~ who the hell am I? I started this thing to find out ~ this might help! Thanks Allie! Second: I don't have 7 people to tag! I know I am LAME, but I am new to this, ugh! So I just might pick some random folks ~ SORRY! If you have no interest in my blog I don't mind ~ I didn't start this thing for anyone but me!
So here are the rules:
1) Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog
2) Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird
3) Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs
4) Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Word! Here Goes!
1) Organization is KEY! If things are cluttered, unclean, and unorganized my soul can't rest! Unfortunately, since I have been a single parent for the past 10 months my life is full of this and my soul has yet to rest, but soon my husband will help the burden which has weighed down my soul!
2) Playlists are an obsession, I love adding songs to them. Its like finding treasures, lost memories, new memories, memories to be made. I love to associate music with places, people and events in my life.
3) I have an obsession with arms pits, ok really only my husbands arm pit. His sweat mixed with his deodorant is one of my favorite smells in the whole world!
4) I love the smell of grass and trees and flowers and rain ~ the smell of EARTH! The sound of the rain and the outdoors, especially from inside a tent curled up with my husband! I miss this living in the desert.
5) I have to be prepared for the ~ What if?
6) I have a crush on the boys from Break Sk8(America's Best Dance Crew on MTV)... there is something majorly sexy about a guy who can dance on skates. Way HOTT! It reminds me of my husband when he was younger, SEXY! They did this dance to the song "What Is It" by Baby Bash featuring Sean Kingston and they lifted their shirts to reveal their abs! Ouch... it was a sizzler! Foot Note: They are from my home state, Indiana!
7) Little Miss and I call her crocs Gay Shoes... background: a few years ago when crocs came out... I thought they were really gay. So here comes my sister with a pair on, I was like "oh hell no you didn't buy those gay shoes!?" Well, needless to say it stuck! Now my entire family calls them gay shoes. EVEN my 3 yr old!

1) jasonfortheloveofgod
2) crazymanjones
3) iamtrishmarie
4) Sorry
5) All I am
6) Tagging
7) For now

I got nothing...or is it something?

I don't really have much to say again... it seems I have started this whole blog thing when my life was not all that interesting. I would like to think my life is always interesting, but who knows. I guess everyday is an adventure and I should use every second and every minute of every day to JUST LIVE! So, in the spirit of all this and in the journey of discovering who I am and what makes me~ME, I suppose I will look deeper and try to sort out all the everyday life crap and get to the truth of what makes me tick. Why was I put on this earth to live? What do I have to offer? And not even offer the world, but what do I offer myself? What is most enjoyable in my life and why do I keep on, keepin on? Well, I am sure only time will tell for some of these questions, but for the my entertainment I will try to get to the bottom of some of this tonight and maybe even provide myself with some food for thought.





So, J and Allie have been talking a lot about tattoos and it has made want another one! Just when I thought I was done and the bug was smashed, haha, think again! When I was 19, it was just after finals and the completion of my first year in college, my friend and I took a congratulatory road trip to the great state of Missouri and landed in the wonderful city of St. Louis! My friend was from there, so with her parents money we headed to spend a week of fun and relaxation to recuperate from the tenuous semester which we just completed. I believe it was about a 3 hour drive and we had a blast the entire way there. So, we get settled in our hotel room and start our adventures at Union Station and we ended up hitting all the tourist attractions, but on the third day in town we head down to the Loop. I was excited and couldn't wait for what I had been ultimately planning for months, my first Tattoo! Yeah! So I sit down with idea in hand, no messing this one up, I had the whole thing planned out to a T! Trust me, its for life! So, anyways I get my first tattoo, a frog that looks like he is climbing up my back! Background: I have been collecting frog stuff, like frog everything since the age of 5, so when frogs became popular, it really annoyed me! Anyways, so my tattoo is green and blue and at the small of my back. I was really happy with it, it was perfect! It didn't hurt at all like I thought it would! So, 7 years later thinking well the first one didn't hurt that bad, I thought well I want another one! A month ago, I headed to Bad Apple in Vegas and got my second tattoo. A lily flower on my foot. I love it... so freaking awesome... exactly what I wanted and it has so much more meaning behind it then the frog. I still love my frog, but don't really ever see it, so this one is fabulous because I can see it all the time. But, this one was oh holy mother of god WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION painful! Hurt like, hell was burning off my skin one layer at a time, Satan was stabbing me with his pitch fork, the whole time throwing his head back with his evil laugh, HAHAHAHA you sucker! But really that stupid bug has crawled back up and whispered in my ear, you know you want to, just do it, just one more time, shhhhh I won't tell, heheh! I will keep you posted, perhaps there is another tattoo lingering in my future!

NEXT TOPIC: I read The Ice Queen by Alice Hoffman last night and finished today at work (why I didn't blog last night) and IT WAS AWESOME! I have a friend who loves to read, ok well I have a lot of friends and family who love to read, and really I never understood (until today) why I didn't like to read. I always wanted to get interested in it and be a book worm, but I just couldn't. Today, while talking with my friend, the one who recommends most of my readings lately, including The Lovely Bones, I came to the truth behind my lack of reading. It is because I have never been comfortable with my reading skills. I had to be fitted with bifocals when I was in the second grade because my eye would turn in when I focused (eventually I trained my eye and didn't have to wear them anymore) and since then I was always nervous reading aloud and was never confident in my reading skills. I should have known better, I was an honors student and was in the national honors society, but I just was afraid of what I might find if I read and couldn't do it fast or was constantly looking up how to pronounce words or looking for definitions. I was SO wrong, I LOVE TO READ. It is so much fun and I get so engulfed in what I am reading, it is like I am right there. I read faster then I ever thought I could and I just flow across the pages. I have noticed the more and more I read the more I can't wait to move on to the next book. So, my friend is bring in some of her favorites to me tomorrow, can't wait to get started on them this weekend!

Just the tip of the iceberg of who I am...

My Greatest Achievement

My Greatest Achievement

I carried you those long and tenuous months
As you grew, so did my heart
Expanding every inch of untouched emotion
Opening the gateway to uncharted territory
Where loving without boundaries
And feeling limitless exists
My chest bursting at the seams
Waiting ever so patiently and anxiously
Finally seeing your beautiful face
I pressed you against my breast
So close to what was now yours

By: Lou

To My One and Only

To My One and Only

Folded and tucked away
Deep Dark Caverns
A flash of light
A hint of sunshine
Peeling away the surface
A glance, a smile
Splashes of color
Vivid and vibrant
Soft touch, warm inviting
Beaming glow tinted with color
Shinning through
Breaking barriers
Sweet supple kiss
Quiet brightness
Encircling our embrace

By: Lou

Mental Health Day

HAHAHA (evil laugh)! I skipped work today! Lets just call it a MENTAL HEALTH DAY! On another note, I sat down at my laptop to start my blog for today and EEEWWW ~ what the hell is that smell!? So here is a little background... yesterday, no wait, Saturday I decided to take a 3 HOUR nap with my daughter. Well I didn't really decide, I wanted to get some cleaning done while she was napping, but well my body had a different idea. So, there it is 5 O'CLOCK Saturday evening and I have gotten nothing done! So I make a pot of coffee (huge mistake) and get to work, I needed to get a lot done. I get the house all straightened up and start on a few tasks which I have not accomplished in a couple of months. I needed to clean my beta fish bowl, so I got that done and I have another fish tank that I got for mothers day last year. I know random gift, right?, well it was what I really wanted. So, to tell you the truth I haven't cleaned it since, well I have never cleaned it, I think my husband cleaned it a few times, but never did I want to do it! So, I get the thing all clean, and begin on a few other things, like packing. Since my fly boy left (I am trying out a few different names, J offered up this one) for Korea, we have had our follow-on orders to another base, so needless to say I have known we were moving for quit some time. I have been packing up a box here and a box there, to lessen the burden when the day finally arrives. A lot of my house is already packed up, and since I have had extra time to do this, I have been able to pack things the way I like them. Finally, 3 AM rolls around and the caffeine wears off. I headed for bed... where was I going with this? OH RIGHT! So what the F is the smell?... the last of the dieing bread of mothers day fish was found floating upside down. Little Miss wants to feed her fish and what do I say to her? We have yet to deal with death, so I tell her the truth and well Fred headed for Davy Jones Locker by way of the swirly watery grave of the toilet! YUCK! She took it better then I thought she would. This way I will only have to move one fish, unless Blue decides to kick the bucket too!

I AM TIRED

Ok so I guess I have just been really worn out lately. This whole "single" parent thing is taking a toll. My honey is due home in 74 days thank GOD, because I just don't want to do this anymore. Little Miss and I just want Daddy home with us again. This year has been a complete struggle, with ups and downs and pretty much just all around! Gotta love the Military. The handsome one in the center is MINE!

(Incentive Flight, he isn't a Pilot)

Day One

I don't have anything clever to write today, so with some sleep and a good strong cup of coffee perhaps I will be able to have a few amusing antics to share tomorrow. Until then I shall retire to my bat cave to catch some much deserved rest.