Need to make a little time...

I had no idea almost two years ago that my life would have taken the direction it has taken. I stopped blogging because life got in the way. I started doing this to find time for myself and I have done any thing but find time. When my fly boy got home, we moved, I started a new job (that I hated) and then just forgot to take care of myself. Then, we began proceedings on buying a short sale home. That was an adventure, finally we moved into our home after 6 months of negotiations. During this process, my husband went for 6 weeks of training and the evening before he left we conceived our son. Children were not on our horizon, we were happy being a family of three, but I guess life had other plans. At first I was devastated, I couldn't imagine my life changing from the path I was on, how could this be I thought? Slowly the idea of another child grew on me, then in late September this little tiny precious life was wrapped tightly and placed in my lap for his first nursing and my heart melted. He was perfect, after all the worry and heart ache, here lie perfection! I just couldn't fathom having another mouth to feed and then as I was starting to enjoy my pregnancy, a doctor with no tact gave me news that was devastating. "Your child has three soft markers for down syndrome", ultrasound findings. With an incredibly supportive other half, we decided to not have an amniocenteses and love our baby no matter what the outcome. Four months of worrying, most of it silent because he (husband) ensured me the baby was perfect and we had nothing to worry about, the baby came screaming into this world with not a single flaw. My little man is almost six months and our family is complete. I had no idea what I was missing until he came into our lives. I have left my horrid job to stay home with my children which is fantastic, however financially draining. I am taking donations ;0). I am again going to find time for myself. I have made several New Year resolutions, I will delve into these topics further in future blogs. Finding time to write is one, so here I am back on my blog writing and enjoying every push of the keys.